Here’s how I know my insides are not done healing: before my surgery I slept on my side a lot. Now I can’t stand more than a couple minutes on my side because it feels like all my internal parts are pulling against the thread they used to sew me back together. As if they all want to fall into that negative space created when the bad parts were removed. When I lay on my back, everything nestles nicely in place. But on my side it’s like I’ve tipped a platter and all the meat wants to slid to one end.
A bit grizzly, I know, and I’m sorry if I’ve grossed you out. But it’s a really good measuring stick for where I’m at with my recovery. I need measuring sticks like this.